Sitting on the fence

Life is meant to be full of ups and downs.

It is the path we take through all the peaks and troughs which makes a 'life journey'. But sometimes, a trough seems endless and as we're so focused on getting out, we lose complete perspective on where we're standing. It is only when someONE, someTHING, some EVENT - taps us on the shoulder and momentarily distracts us. Only then, do we take a step back and look at ourselves from an alternate perspective. Then we realise that we weren't in a trough, rather, we had dug ourselves a pothole as we stood at the top of the mountain.

I feel that way now. I have so much to be happy and grateful for but my mind and my heart, won't quiet down and just be. I know to stop this, I just need to stand still but my mind wonders backwards and forwards in time, reluctant to focus on the present. I know what I need to do but I hesitate to do it. Why? Do I like the drama? Do I like the unease? Do I like sitting on the fence?

But life is about choices. I am choosing to stop it now. With my next breath, I am going to stop, breathe and relish in the present. With this breath, I choose to be happy.